“I will never leave you nor will I forsake you” – Hebrews 13:5
This is a scripture that the Lord had given me at a very young age. For years I have treasured this simple truth, and it was this scripture that I woke up to every morning since I was a child. It took years of continuous reading and wrestling with this scripture on a daily basis for it to completely work into my spirit where I could actually start to see and believe the goodness of the Father. One morning I opened my eyes and thought, “WOW! What a promise this is!” Just think about it, the Father promises that He will NEVER leave your side no matter what the situation is. It took so long for those penetrating words to sink into my spirit, because the human mind can’t grasp the spiritual and unseen things of God. But, that’s just it, we weren’t made to function in the flesh but rather in the spirit and that is why when you see this scripture from a spiritual point of view rather than a physical one, you start to see how God moves and operates. He will literally shift mountains for you to show you that He will never leave you.
Today, I want to share a small part of my testimony with you. From a young age, I had been abused by men in various ways, whether it was sexual, physical, mentally or emotionally. For years I thought that I would never be good enough for any man, or that I will never be graced with the ability of being able to walk in the fullness of marriage. Not having accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour yet, I fully believed that I would be able to fix both myself and any man that tried to get too close to me (because men that abuse women are essentially broken on the inside, leading me to believe that I would be the one to save them from their brokenness). God literally had to remove me off that throne so that He could become the Master of my healing. When I had accepted God and His healing process, I unintentionally agreed to the fact that He would break me. Break me from old habits, pain, thought patterns and the vision I had about marriage. Suddenly, I couldn’t see the goodness of God. On the surface I looked very normal, but in the spirit God was busy shifting mountains that clouded my vision. Now more than ever it felt like my world was starting to fall apart. I had never felt like such a big of failure in my life, but it’s all because God had to take me back to the root of the pain. He needed to come heal and restore what the enemy had broken and stolen from me since I was a child. You see, God told me that the marriage covenant is one of His highest covenants, because it directly represents the covenant he has with His bride, the church. In that moment where God shifted my thought pattern, only then did I start to understand the healing process where it allowed me to step into the fullness and goodness of God’s standard when it comes to a relationship.
Today I can boldly proclaim this: our God IS a good God. His love NEVER fails. His goodness and favour will always go before you and He ALWAYS wants the best for you, His precious daughter. God says in Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you. Thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” How amazing is it to know that the Creator of the universe, the One who gave life to over 18 billion people, thinks about YOUR future and has a plan specifically set apart for you! He is concerned about who you marry, because it represents His covenant. So, trust and find rest in the fact that He won’t just give you to someone who does not have His heart. He loves you so much, so uniquely, that He will pave a way and establish a destiny that is completely different from any one of the 18 billion people living on planet earth. Your future and destiny were dreamt up by God and sketched out by His own hands. Just for a second, imagine the dreams you have for yourself. Now, imagine how God’s dreams for you are even 1 million times bigger than that. The Author of love is concerned about your story. That is the ultimate goodness of God!
Loads of love xx