For a very long time this subject sent chills down my spine. Intimacy. With God. I have always been so scared to speak about this subject, because it always felt so far away and out of my reach. I mean what does it even look like? Do I have it? Well, I thought I did? God knows, and He knew that my level of intimacy was not where it needed to be, so He stripped me from that which was stealing my intimate time with Him.
God is a very jealous God. He is so jealous for you that He would go after that which steals your time, thoughts and energy. He would clear your whole schedule without your consent. Intimacy with God is such an abstract thing, yet SO beautiful. I can't quite describe it, but if I had to it would be something like this: A love that I have never felt before. A presence I have never felt before. A type of presence that can't be substituted by man. A voice that I have been longing to hear for such a long time. Such a beautiful still voice that's like a two-edged sword, cutting straight through my thoughts and emotions and hits the wind out of my sails. A voice I want to obey. An artist that fills in the blanks of my future and places an excitement in my heart for that which He has predestined for me. He is my maker, my husband, my Father and friend all in one. He is exactly what I need Him to be. I found all of this at His feet...
Whenever I find myself wanting to grab momentary things to satisfy the longing in my heart, I throw myself at His feet. It's there where I can be completely honest and raw. It's there where I can put every person, feeling and emotion on the altar and completely trust God with it. It is there where I lose myself and find myself at the same time. It's there where I pray the perfect will of God. There where I pray things into existence. When I get into the presence of God, I am completely broken and undone, but when I stand up I am ready to dance on the enemy's head.
Intimacy with God is not a onetime thing. It's continually throwing yourself in the presence of God. Just like a wife and husband has mental and physical intimacy, God longs for that. And to receive that you have to know your Maker’s voice, and the only way to do that is to spend time with Him. It is such a beautiful thing. He leads me and guides me. He gives me beauty for ashes. He places me on solid ground and prepares a table for me. All because He loves me and is jealous for me.
This is a jealousy I will take any given day, if it means that I can discover the heart of my Father.
I pray for you that you will find this type of intimacy. It is the most rewarding thing if you choose to obey.
Blessings
Jacolette